I’m Finally Letting Go… | New Camera, Pilates & Coming Home to Myself

I’m finally back home from Japan, and after almost a week of jet lag, I’m slowly starting to feel like myself again. This video is a little bit of everything — trying out my new DJI Nano camera, setting up my new filming bag, testing a Pilates training board gifted through my Amazon wishlist, and sharing some very personal thoughts about where I am emotionally right now. I impulsively bought the DJI Nano during the last few days of my Japan trip, and honestly, I’m so glad I did. I love how compact it is, the image quality, and how much more I can capture with the wider view. I’m also experimenting with using two cameras at once so I can eventually create different angles and more dynamic videos. Of course, because this is real life, I forgot one of my microphones — so you’ll see the very candid, imperfect setup process too. 😂 I also finally tried the Pilates training board that one of my supporters gifted me from my Amazon list. I originally planned to do yoga, but after traveling and carrying all the equipment into the courtyard, I decided Pilates made more sense. This was my first time using this kind of equipment, and some of the exercises were surprisingly challenging but felt really good. I’m hoping to incorporate it into my routine at least three times a week and continue finding ways to use movement, yoga, Pilates, meditation, and quiet time as part of my healing journey. But underneath all of that, this video is really about something much deeper. While I was in Japan, and especially after coming home, I realized that I have been carrying the grief of a friendship for a long time. I’ve talked about it, thought about it, woken up in the middle of the night thinking about it, and wondered whether things would eventually heal. But sometimes healing means accepting that something may have already ended. I’m learning that I cannot force someone to value a connection the way I do. I can’t keep reaching for someone who has chosen distance. And as painful as that realization has been, there is also something incredibly freeing about finally letting go. I’m grateful for the people who continue to show up for me, encourage me, support me, and remind me that I don’t have to shrink myself to be worthy of connection. I’m learning to choose myself, protect my peace, live more authentically, and stop holding onto things simply because I’m afraid of losing them. Japan gave me so many beautiful memories with my family, especially my mom, and coming home has given me another opportunity to slow down and process everything I’ve been feeling. I’m realizing more and more that life is happening right now — not someday when everything is figured out. This is just the beginning of another chapter. Thank you for being here, supporting my journey, watching my videos, commenting, subscribing, and allowing me to share both the beautiful moments and the messy ones. There is so much more content coming, and I hope you’ll continue this journey with me. ❤️ #HealingJourney #Authenticity #Pilates #ContentCreator #LivingInTheNow ✨ Join my journey: ORIGINAL CHANNEL w/ Members Only → early access + exclusive yoga videos Patreon → unedited, more personal content https://www.patreon.com/jaslovemenow Instagram @inspireauthenticliving & @itsmsjasssssss SUPPORT My Other Channels: REAL & Authentic Easy YOGA Channel: https://www.youtube.com/@realyogahealingjourney authenticity coach | healing, yoga, travel Channel: https://www.youtube.com/@jaslovemenow